Day 4

So far it hasn't been a bad week.  I don't mind being at work when I am there.  The kids are still my kids and handling things well most of the time. 

Yesterday I had lots of "new employee" training.  Most of this was good, but I had a couple of extra meetings about "maternity leave" and the baby.

I left those last meetings feeling like a mess.  Like how I might have to pay my own benefits for two months because I'll have so little paid leave to use. (So any  money I can save for the next three months I probably need to pay insane amounts of medical)  I was planning on trying to work a few hours here and there within a couple weeks from baby, but I'm pretty sure they want permission from the doctor for legal reasons.  Athough they legally don't have to give me maternity leave because I haven't been there for six months, even though it would be unpaid, just like what I'll take anyway?  And in the end, I felt kind of ticked off that my baby is just this blip in the road.  This thing we all just have to get through.

So this morning just sucks.  I hate this and I can't believe I've got to go back to figuring it out!