This afternoon I have an odd loneliness in my heart. Honestly, it began with my neighbors leaving for the weekend. Just the weekend. But every time I look out my window it feels like something is missing. The it continues with an odd dream I had. This happens occasionally, I have a dream that messes up my emotions for a whole day. I don't get spiritual message dreams, just odd emotional dreams. And the moment when I think of a friend of mine who moved rather suddenly two weeks ago. I can't stop by. She isn't there anymore.
Today, I attended church for 30 minutes, to take the sacrament and drop off some things for Primary. Then I came home so I would be sure to have a few minutes with my dad before he left. He's been visiting this weekend from Oregon, we've been fishing and playing and working.
Now he's headed home. I'm at the end of a 9 day stay-cation with my kids (back to work tomorrow) and the odd lonely feeling hits. If I were to be honest, I recognize the feeling. It happens to me every time one of my parents leaves after a visit.
Thankfully, it won't last very long, this lonely hole. Tomorrow morning my husband starts a new job with a new schedule and the next couple of weeks will be busy and tiring with us figuring out the new normal routine for us. I won't have too much time to dwell on this experience and loneliness will be filled with busy fullness.
Until then, I just have to take a minute to reflect on our many blessings of loving family. Pray for healing from a loving God who has the power to make me full.
