Bah humbug to you Thanksgiving!

Is anyone else getting bombarded by 22 days of thankful on Facebook? Of course you are!

For the first time though, looking at 100 thankful posts a day just makes me want to throw up! It used to be fun to skim. This year though...

I'm sure it's mostly a matter of jealousy. And I don't want to hear about all of your great jobs, loving husbands, and perfect children alright?

I know in my mind that notwithstanding a few struggles we have had 9 years together of many blessings and prosperity. I know that. It's just a matter of staying....dare I say...thankful for those things in the face of a confusing future.

The other day I decided to get out my scripture journal again and make a new goal of study. Since I won't be buying myself a names of Christ journal from the red headed hostess this year I decided to just to the study in my homemade journal.

I started with the name Redeemer.  I may not have felt very thankful this month.  But at the end (or rather the middle, since I'm not done) of this study I have felt very thankful for Jesus Christ and His role as Redeemer.  He has redeemed me, bought me back, restored rights, recovered me from being separated from God and paid the price both for iniquity and hurt. 

 5 When Jesus saw their faith, he said unto the sick of the palsy, Son, thy sins be ^aforgiven thee.

 6 But there were certain of the scribes sitting there, and reasoning in their hearts,

 7 Why doth this man thus speak ^ablasphemies? who can forgive sins but God only?

 8 And immediately when Jesus perceived in his spirit that they so reasoned within themselves, he said unto them, Why reason ye these things in your hearts?

 9 Whether is it easier to say to the sick of the palsy, Thy sins be forgiven thee; or to say, Arise, and take up thy bed, and walk?

 10 But that ye may know that the ^aSon of man hath power on earth to forgive sins, (he saith to the sick of the palsy,)

 11 I say unto thee, ^aArise, and take up thy ^bbed, and go thy way into thine house. (Mark 2:5-11 KGV)

Christ takes care of our eternal soul, the  most important things.  Even so, He can care for the less important things too.

Mr. Monster

I love my little monster man! This age is one of the best. 

He loves dogs! He gets so excited when he sees our friends dog.  He stomps his feet as quick as he can and squeals. I love how he stomps his feet. He does it when I vacuum too, but he seems to be afraid of that!

Gave the tinkerbell DVD a big baby kiss.

Is a moms monster. He is very attached to mommy.

Will grab your hand and lead you exactly where he needs you. He's very good at taking you exactly where he would like.

He's started signing eat/drink by putting his hand to his mouth

It pours...

Funny, when I wrote my last post I really thought maybe that was the lowest we would get.  It felt amazing, by the way, to have my friends offer so much support here (and the link I posted on facebook).  I was reminded that being a mom is stinking hard some days.  Having other little people depend on you for everything, rely on you for their comfort, sustenance AND entertainment is exhausting.  Many of us have lived our lives up to motherhood with a considerable amount of personal space and time to ourselves.  It's just a huge and constant adjustment. 

Anyway, thank you.

Now let me tell you...the next two days were better.  My son got better - a.k.a. no fever.  The doctor I saw on Monday knew what was happening, and said a few days would take care of the rest. 

But if I thought my life was going to get much easier, I was very very wrong.

So, on Halloween, my husband was told he was losing his job.  I won't even elaborate much on what or why.  I could go on and on I'm sure.  I'm pretty ticked.  We moved back across the country.  We spent buckets of money selling our other house.  We felt like it was meant to be.  Although not without flaws, God paved the way for us to move closer to our family members.  We were able to sell our house.  It wasn't a short sale.  We planned on staying with this job for the rest of our lives.  Seriously.  We bought another house.

I asked for this didn't I?  Didn't I say I would make the sacrifice of a lower salary to move near to our family.  Now as I sit here, with nothing to speak of by way of savings (we just moved and sold/bought another house.  we are still recovering) and a job that ends in 3 more days, I can't help but wonder what I was thinking. 

What was I thinking??  And I can't help but pine after my life in the other state.  The one I had finally found a good school for my daughter and made some good friends.  I had finally made a place there... This is what I came back for?  I love my friends and family very much.  But today I feel like I would rather live in the other state with a good JOB.  We could live super simple and fly back here like 4 times a year couldn't we?

So, I think it may be awhile before I under-estimate the value of finances in my decision making.  Although, truth be told, we thought we would be secure enough.  We were wrong, but there it is.