It pours...

Funny, when I wrote my last post I really thought maybe that was the lowest we would get.  It felt amazing, by the way, to have my friends offer so much support here (and the link I posted on facebook).  I was reminded that being a mom is stinking hard some days.  Having other little people depend on you for everything, rely on you for their comfort, sustenance AND entertainment is exhausting.  Many of us have lived our lives up to motherhood with a considerable amount of personal space and time to ourselves.  It's just a huge and constant adjustment. 

Anyway, thank you.

Now let me tell you...the next two days were better.  My son got better - a.k.a. no fever.  The doctor I saw on Monday knew what was happening, and said a few days would take care of the rest. 

But if I thought my life was going to get much easier, I was very very wrong.

So, on Halloween, my husband was told he was losing his job.  I won't even elaborate much on what or why.  I could go on and on I'm sure.  I'm pretty ticked.  We moved back across the country.  We spent buckets of money selling our other house.  We felt like it was meant to be.  Although not without flaws, God paved the way for us to move closer to our family members.  We were able to sell our house.  It wasn't a short sale.  We planned on staying with this job for the rest of our lives.  Seriously.  We bought another house.

I asked for this didn't I?  Didn't I say I would make the sacrifice of a lower salary to move near to our family.  Now as I sit here, with nothing to speak of by way of savings (we just moved and sold/bought another house.  we are still recovering) and a job that ends in 3 more days, I can't help but wonder what I was thinking. 

What was I thinking??  And I can't help but pine after my life in the other state.  The one I had finally found a good school for my daughter and made some good friends.  I had finally made a place there... This is what I came back for?  I love my friends and family very much.  But today I feel like I would rather live in the other state with a good JOB.  We could live super simple and fly back here like 4 times a year couldn't we?

So, I think it may be awhile before I under-estimate the value of finances in my decision making.  Although, truth be told, we thought we would be secure enough.  We were wrong, but there it is.