Baby Steps

This last week was a SUPER busy week.  My husband worked a very crazy shift at his new job.  So when he wasn't there...he was asleep :) Poor guy.  I was in the middle/end of planning an open house for Weight Watchers.  Then, just our day to day was looming.

 I've been working through my thoughts about my word for the year: Dedication, while I work through Holleys book.  Day 9 I read:  "If we are taking on things that God never intended us to do, we're using time, energy, and emotion that's needed somewhere else."

What was in my life that was draining me of time, energy and emotion?

It wasn't hard to find.  It was that open house I was planning.  About two weeks into the planning, I did not feel dedicated anymore.  That was about when all the complaining started.  I'm sure I spent as much time complaining as I did planning.  Anyone that would listen, I told them the things that were crazy and frustrating.  Here's the kicker - I won't get paid for all the time I spent complaining. The only paycheck I got was to stir myself up a bit more.

The event itself - while it didn't go off without a hitch - was a very good event. We had a good turnout and  I felt inspired and motivated about lifestyle change, although a bit physically drained.  Maybe I wasn't "intended" to be there. Maybe the problem was all my attitude.  I took the work to get the extra hours that my family really needed.  And that is fine!  Next time, when I do something out of necessity, I hope I can keep my attitude positive. Take it one chunk at a time.  Stay dedicated.

My "God-sized" dreams?  I'm keeping a new zero balance budget sheet.  Brenda and I are crocheting together and I'm thinking etsy shop names.  My mustard seed goal was actually just to have family prayer once a day.  My husband had that crazy schedule and some nights it was just me and the kids.  But we're doing it!  I think these prayers, and my own are the most important thing.  This is how I will know if I am going the right direction.  This is how I will know when to make a change - or not!  But only if I'm listening.

I'm keeping it together for 2013 and seeing where the days take us.  Baby steps.