Have you ever had one of those days where you think you might explode? One of those days where you DO actually explode a few times. After the diaper mysteriously ended up in one leg of the sleeper and you are cleaning potty off the floor, followed by someone pulling my knitting down (from pretty high up mind) and taking it off the needles and chasing the cat around with the needles. Where you walk into another room (not occupied by your toddler) and proceed to stamp your feet while muttering under your breath (or not under your breath however) and basically act like your 2 year old? And as much as you are trying to hide it from them - you know that this must be part of where they are getting it from?
I tried to get over it - a trip to McDonalds to munch on empty calories followed by at least an hour in the playplace (during which I actually played after all the other kids were gone, talk about burning some calories) and a 20 minute turn around the store to pick up diapers with child safely strapped into stroller where I proceeded to occupy her and then just let her be while I looked around...except for when her nose started running so much she was choking and crying...then I promise I was paying attention.
As much as I tried to get over it - AS SOON as we were home, the wanting the car track set up but then not using it because we can't find the yellow car (which is only missing because of the last time SHE got frustrated and threw them), the pushing the step stool to the kitchen light switches and smiling very sweetly at mom - but very clearly trying to wind up instead of go to bed - all this brought it all back to the surface.
I have no idea who cut my fuse off but I have NO tolerance today. Really great for a day when your child apparently is getting sick too (remember the insane stuffy nose?) I mean poor thing probably just can't even breathe and is having a hard time going to sleep. Does anybody read Emily? I think I'm missing the same empathy gene she is.
I've heard that vics vapor rub put on their feet at night (and then put socks on) really helps. I have yet to try it because I usually forget about it. But it's worth a try. And I think just about everybody loses it sometimes. Especially when you're the only one around to parent. So, don't be too hard on yourself. You're a good Mommy!!!
ReplyDeleteHave you introduced her to the magic of TV? I'm not saying planting her in front of the TV all day. Just an hour at the most. She'll like Sesame Street or whatever you can find on PBS, learn some new things, and give you time to gather yourself and renew your patience for her. When we're frustrated not only everything seems to go wrong, but we tend to have more accidents, too; entertaining your kids with something somewhat educational will help you catch up with their messes and get ahead.
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